dammed if you do dammed if you don't

Ugh the never ending struggle of weight loss...

I am actually trying to do it the RIGHT way with changing my eating habits and working out...well it doesn't seem to be working very well at the moment, which is very frustrating!

I started back on birth control pills a little less than a month ago, and since then I have seen NO weight loss, AT ALL! So like the title says...dammed if you do dammed if you don't!

No way my eggo wants to be preggo right now, I love my son and would love to give him a little sister someday, but right now mama needs to focus on getting her ass out of school!

I've had people tell me to go the easy route, one told me the "only" option for her was weight loss surgery, well lets think about that...for one I'm a mother so any surgery gives me the risk of not waking up and being able to care for my child, and that is terrifying! Two no way in hell I have the money for that, and three I am technically in the range where I could, but I feel like it's a cop-out, does that make sense?

Another person told me they are doing the HCG diet, basically you are supposed to take these drops, and it is supposed to eat up the fat already on your body, and you cannot eat more than 500 calories a day, yea you heard right, ONLY 500 a day!!! Yea my breakfast was more than that this morning!! (and all I had was eggs, an english muffin with pb and a banana!!) It does seem to be working for her for now, and that's great, but once again, not for me. I don't want to deprive my body of what it needs to not go into starvation mode :/

So I bitch and complain pretty much every day about not being able to sit around and be a pig, and that I need to work out, BUT even with my weight being such a royal pain in my ass, kinda like Pippa it seems...I know that my body is becoming healthier by the day, and at some point my body will give in and this weight will come off!

Hopefully sooner than later!

goal

So I decided to set my weight loss goal a little lower, instead of going for my ultimate goal I'm going to do small ones to get to it :) As of right now my goal is to loose 7 1/2 more pounds by the end of July. Of course I would like it to be sooner than that, but still ;)

I tried on my size 14 jeans today, good news is I can get them over my legs and butt, but I still have about 5 inches or so in my waist to loose to get the fastened lol...but that's not too horrible right?

I can do this!!

man it feels good!

I took Brendan on a walk today to Kohl's, there is one about 1/2 mile away. I had one of those $10 off a $10 or more purchase, so essentially $10 free, and being a woman I of course had to spend it before it was no longer good!

I went over to the women's section, because heaven forbid ANYONE with a shape try to go to juniors, nothing will fit! News flash! Girls have tits and ass, so make some clothes that are made to fit those parts!

Anyway, normally I get all my jeans and whatnot from Lane Bryant, well because since I'm a bigger girl and have a big butt, they are normally the only ones that fit me. I don't like their tops though btw, guess with big girl clothes you should have no shape just like juniors, weird how that works right?

So I grab a few pair of capris, I don't wear shorts so this is the closest I get. ALL of them that i grabbed FIT me! wth?! I am NOT used to that happening! Granted they were all size 16s, but my point is I was in a normal store, not in the big girls section, and they all fit me! :O

Needless to say I was a happy camper, I choose my favorite pair, picked out a frame for Dave for Father's Day that says "superdad: not all super heros wear capes" and got Brendan a red white and blue outfit for next month, the shirt says "I'm a great catch" with a baseball, cute right!?

I am very pleased with my shopping trip, only thing I didn't like about it was I tried on one of those long flowy summer dresses, SUPER cute on me, but damn if the thing wasn't a foot too long! Damn being short...

two feet!!!!

On a good note today, I did my measurements like I do on the first of the month (I have been since March) and I lost 14 1/4 inches this past month!

I may not like Jillian Michaels, but her workouts are for damn sure working!

In the past three months I have now lost 24 1/4 inches!

That is two freakin feet!!! which means not much smaller than my kid O.O

Wii of my dreams

So as I've been on this new workout routine and been counting calories I have now become obsessed with weighing myself. Too bad every scale I have bought recently sucks at life, that being said my Wii is very happy to see me again! The past three days I have weighed in with my Wii Fit and been down .9, for three days in a row...yes I know that's amazing and I know how awesome I am...but Wii ohh Wii could I possibly just see 1.0 instead of .9? That would be awesome, thanks Wii, I love you :)

I deal with the Devil nightly

Her name is Jillian Michaels... *shakes fist in air*